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I wrote things this year! Granted, I only wrote three fics, but still, it merits a post. All of them were Once Upon a Time, but I branched out a bit more with relationships.

Below: This was actually for laura-p-g, for the Once Upon a Festive Gift Giving Exchange, 2017… but I think I finished it late. The fic is about (past) Outlaw Queen, but the driving relationships are Regina's relationships with her female friends. I was happy with how this turned out--I wanted it to feel dreamlike, and I think that part worked out okay.

Repetition and Variation: This was an AU idea that I'd wanted to write for ages to help explain how Snow could end up the Evil Queen and Regina would be the beloved bandit of the people. I finally wrote a terribly dark ending for it (after having had the first parts done for ages) and posted it.

Menu Planning: The most recent one--a light and silly thing I wrote after a bunch of people who believe Emma loves lasagna complained about how they don't like it themselves.

Other fannish things this year:

I got a podfic made of one of my fics!

I cosplayed at Emerald City Comic Con (Link 1 and Link 2) and Rose City Comic Con.

I also started doing a bit of role-playing over at my sideblog. Mostly playing Regina for Dragon Queen.

I'd also include some DND rps in my roundup of fannish things. I got to play an innkeeper with a tragic past who is abruptly forced to confront it after getting drunk with an adventurer and agreeing to switch places with him. I also got to play a dragonborn bard longing to raise the organ into its rightful place as the most metal of instruments (and also save the world from the chaotic forces of evil, of course).

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Title: Menu Planning
Fandom: Once Upon a Time
Pairing: Emma/Regina (Swan Queen)
Summary: Emma has a secret that she's kept for years. She's gotten very good at deflecting certain questions from being asked, but her luck is about to run out. The anti-lasagna fic only a few people asked for.
Notes: You know how every SQ fic has Emma swooning over Regina's lasagna? This is the anti-lasagna fic. Because sometimes fandom is weird. Also, evergrove wanted to read this fic, which my brain interpreted as them wanting me to write it.

Menu planning.

Two seemingly innocuous words that struck terror into Emma's heart. They required all of the things Emma liked least in the world: preparation, subtlety, and undivided attention.

Still, she'd been doing very well. They had gone months, now, without an Incident. She'd become so good at this game that she almost felt it was second-nature. She went so far as to relax, a little, make a couple of jokes--not great jokes, but Regina had rolled her eyes at one and smothered a smile at another, so… win.

Her confidence was her undoing.

Her pride wenteth before the falleth.

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 Once Upon a Festive Giving Exchange 2017

Title: Below (AO3FFN)

Pairing: Outlaw Queen (sort of–read the note as well as the summary, please)

Characters: Regina, Snow, Belle, Zelena, Emma

Summary: Robin didn’t just die; his soul was erased. But nothing is ever truly gone–not if you have a savior, a sister, a nemesis, and a librarian on your side–and enough hope to hold yourself together at the end.

Rating: Teen

Word Count: 3,100

Note: for @laura-p-g, for the @onceuponafestivegifting. I really hope you like this–it’s sort of all about OQ without being a really shippy fic–it doesn’t end with a true happily ever after ending, after all. I saw it more as a celebration of friendship between these lovely ladies–and about the lengths they’d go to to make things as right as they could.

 

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 Okay, but what if the character assassination of Emma Swan in seasons 6 and 7 is deliberate?

1. They had to know that the logical, meaningful end to Emma’s run as Savior was her death at the end of season 6.

2. In this show, getting married in That Dress, having a kid and basically abandoning another one is a more permanent death than death.

3. This theory does not explain any character assassination prior to the end of season 6.

#ouat spoilers #Ouat #anti emma swan #I'm so mad about this whole thing #I can't wait for this ep to be done and gone #I ranted at people all night last night
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 No, criticism of Emma Swan that talks about her becoming a Stepford wife is not the same as saying a strong female character can’t fall in love, get, married, and have kids. That is not what the criticism is about.

What it is about is that ONE THING becoming her defining characteristic.

I’m sorry, but if you think her growing up and learning to love means that she has to accept every shitty thing her boyfriend does without more than a “that was kinda bad, lol”, if you think that means that Emma’s happy ending isn’t getting to fight for her son and his happy ending… Then I don’t fucking understand your definition of “strong female character.”

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 I don’t know why it is that I keep making what-if fixit meta with Captain Swan. Maybe because if I’m going to do an SQ version, I’d rather write the fic. 

Note: this takes into account vague spoilers from the upcoming seventh season, so you have been warned if that’s not something you want to see. 

What if Hook sacrifices himself and everyone goes to the Underworld but they can’t get him back? What if death can’t be overridden? What if Hook stays dead and Emma mourns him at the end of the season and then the next season a duplicate version of him shows up? What if he and Emma have that connection but it’s not the same and it takes them the rest of the season to start to overcome this massive problem–that Emma loved him, tried to save him from death, that they went through all these things together but this Hook is not the same person, just similar enough that it’s sometimes wonderful and sometimes awful? 

What if they overcome all that (in a meaningful way) and then Emma, who is fated to die, makes the hero’s choice and dies to save Gideon and defeat the Black Fairy?

Instead of breaking death on the show, you make it mean something. You’ve given the audience sympathy for Emma because her love is dead and gone and she’s dealing with that–and you’ve still managed to keep Hook. Not only that but suddenly Emma doesn’t look selfish–she looks like someone who has grown, who has learned that loving is worth it, that laying down her life is worth it for her family. You have made her death meaningful, important, and you have solved the problem of why she isn’t in the next season–again without coming up with some awful contrivance and without making her selfish. 

To top it all off, you don’t have to introduce a new Hook, just continue on with the version of Hook people already know from the last season. And this one, while he loved and lost Emma, too, isn’t as tied to her, is better served by moving on. 

That’s my high-level idea about how to fix this show in retrospect while keeping the Captain Swan ship. It sure is easier to think of ways to fix shows in retrospect…
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 from evergrove
SwanQueen or DragonSwan?

This is really tough!

DQ is fantastic, and if I had to pick a ship to actually happen on the actual show, DQ would win because I don’t feel like the show left Emma and Regina in the right spot for each other, whereas I feel that DQ could be a good, strong, mature ship for Mal and Regina–and it’s a lovely story of two complicated people finding each other in a less-than-perfect way in a less-than-perfect world. 

However, my soul belongs to SQ, definitely. I love the idea of these two destined enemies turning around and finding each other to be compatible in ways that they certainly never expected or even really wanted. I love the way they are honest and open with each other in ways that they normally aren’t with other people. I love that it’s complicated and messy and I have no explanation for the way they look at each other otherwise.

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  1. I multiship but I’m no longer saying I’m not swen. Sorry, gatekeepers. I’m swen and I multiship. 
  2. I actually would like to see Regina make out with a woman, any woman.
  3. I would also love to see a developed relationship between her and a woman. This hopefully would include kissing but needn’t be with the same woman as point #2.
  4. I think Regina ending up with a woman other than Emma is NOT the same as swan queen happening on the show. But that doesn’t mean it wouldn’t be fun!
  5. I ship dragon queen for different reasons than I ship swan queen, but I have many reasons. Teh Pretty is just one of them.
  6. I keep my ketchup in my fridge.
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 Title: what’s mine is yours and you are mine

Fandom: Once Upon a Time

Pairing: Dragon Queen (Regina/Maleficent)

Category: Fluffy like a warm, cozy sweater

Summary: Dragons hoard things; it’s what they do. Regina comes to a decision when looking for where Mal stashed her sweaters. (Cozy Sweater Fluff Plus!)

Notes: @saxgoddess25​ and @soulofsilence​ both begged me to write the fic where Mal hoards Regina’s sweaters. So… I did. Only then my brain (and SoS) kept telling me that you couldn’t just have Regina leave Mal a small box and not say what was in it. The first part of this is 99% identical to “The Hunt for the Hoarded Sweaters.” And yes, @ussjellyfish​, this is the mystery project. :-)

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 My running theory after the first couple of episodes of season 5A (I really liked the first couple of episodes of that half-season) was that Emma was telling the truth when she said that it was all her family’s fault she turned dark, that they had each encountered a problem that needed a Dark One, either for expediency or because it was the only solution they saw. I tried to take things from the episodes where they fit and also added ideas for things I might’ve done to make Emma’s descent into darkness the fault of the people who loved her most, the people who should have known better. I wanted to make her descent rely on Emma’s desire to be the savior and help at any cost to herself.

This is an alternate take on 5A. It holds to established canon ships.

Regina begs Emma to save Robin. This is the big one, the first request, the one that breaks the heroes’ insistence that they are not going to have Emma use her magic because the darkness just too seductive. This is the episode that made me buy that they were going there with Emma, that they were really going to make her family partially responsible for her darkness.

The dwarves (they WANTED to be a part of the adventure, after all) find out that the brother they thought was dead might actually be in this realm, nearby, and that he might have something they need to release Merlin from the tree. But their brother might be in more trouble than they thought, and it seems like they might need to make a deal with the Dark One to help him…

David and Arthur go on their bro-quest for the magic toadstool, but those left behind get a tip from Lancelot that all may not be right in Camelot. They discover that Guinevere is enchanted with the Sands of Avalon and attempt to release her from the curse so she can help them. (Perhaps it turns out the Sands of Avalon, as the creation of a former DO, are powerful magic that can only be undone by another Dark One’s magic.)

Merida makes a deal with Emma for the spell to change her fate so she can rescue her brothers. Belle still convinces Merida she can accomplish her goal without the spell.

Henry’s date with Violet goes exactly the same way, and for the same reasons–Emma is already losing perspective on her darkness. After they free Merlin, she offers to fix it for him–but Henry, as a true hero, turns her down (leading Emma to tell him that everyone else let her down, but not him.)

Arthur and Zelena work together to trap Merlin by binding him to Excalibur. Killian gets hurt in the rescue.

We find out that Killian and Emma have been planning to move in together. Instead of Emma admitting she wants to move forward with her relationship with Hook, she admits that she’s having doubts and that she hasn’t been honest with him because she loves him and doesn’t want to hurt him. He says that he’ll wait until she’s ready. This honesty unlocks the Promethean Flame, but Killian collapses just like before and Emma tethers him to the sword to save his life, realizing that she does want that future after all–at any cost. And why is everyone so judgmental about this? Doesn’t she deserve to be happy? Haven’t they been the ones prioritizing themselves over her this whole time?

And that’s how you turn Emma dark.

Then, you have her working to undo making Hook a DO without killing him, which involves sacrificing someone to the darkness. You have her working to bring this plan to fruition. You have Hook succumbing to the darkness without knowing what’s going on–maybe he starts working with Emma because he is tricked by her arguments about doing what’s necessary, because he believes her. Maybe he turns cruel without meaning to. Basically, you show the influence of the darkness in him before he gets his memories back.

And then the end of 5A plays out largely the same, except Emma does have to sacrifice herself to get rid of the darkness. She dies and Hook is left de-Dark One-ed… and Hades comes and offers him/everyone else a chance to get her back. You see, he’s looking for something to use against his brother, who cursed him to the Underworld, and if they help him, he’ll help them. After all, he’s the ruler of the Underworld, and he’s never met a rule he can’t bend, even that pesky one about not bringing anyone back from the dead.

Rumple doesn’t become the DO again right then, but he offers to help them navigate the Underworld because he wants the power back, because Belle’s gone and he might as well. He cautions them not to trust Hades, because his games are always rigged.

They descend into the Underworld.

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One good thing to come out of being a fan of ouat is that it’s helped solidify the difference between natural consequences and artificial plot twists in my mind… Mostly by showing what damage inflicting an artificial plot twist and ignoring natural consequences can do to character again and again and again and again.
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1. This episode would have made 1,000 times more sense if neither Charming nor Snow remembered their little jaunt in Cursed!Storybrooke.

2. I absolutely think the writers thought they made it clear TO EMMA that Hook was in immediate danger. (He sent his shadow, his hook came too, and… he apparently needed her to get a random piece of wood?) If we take as a given that Emma knew Hook was in immediate, life-threatening danger, AND that Snow actually made the decision not to use the Pixie Dust and that Emma couldn’t have used it herself to wake them anyway (which I believe)) then I am prepared to give her a soft pass on this one. Mind you, she’s still in Trout’s Bad Character Doghouse for so many other reasons, including that horrible sweater, that she is still failing Trout’s Bad Character Rehabilitation Course.

3. Look, Charming and Snow already made the decision to send Emma away when she wasn’t even yet BORN. And, as far as they knew, she was safe and happy and normal. In retrospect, of course, they doomed her to an unhappy childhood where she felt unloved and unwanted. But they didn’t make that cold calculation at the time. And they always bargained her against the future happiness of everyone in Storybrooke. So while it was sort of a crap thing to do to their kid, it wasn’t new and it wasn’t 100% terrible, either. (Also, I just re-watched the scene where they see her through the door, and from their perspective, they can’t see two other bunk beds that you can see from Emma’s perspective.)

4. Still adamantly against Emma taking blame for Hook not telling her the truth.

5. Okay, the episode was never going to actually make sense. Pixie flowers? Really? That’s a thing now? Also, you can share a sleeping curse by drinking nonexistent liquid from a silver cup. (Whatever. Like I watch this show for its logic.)

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 Title: through the woods she carries you home

Fandom: Once Upon a Time

Relationships and Characters: Snow Queen friendship, Dragon Queen romantic relationship (background), Lily is here and threatens Snow but I don’t know what to call that.

Words: 2,300

Summary: It would be moments before Regina bled out either way, and deep down Snow knew there wasn’t time for help to come, not unless help could find them in the middle of the woods, in the dark.

Notes: My eternal gratitude to @shinewithalltheuntold, who read this for me and seemed to think it was pretty decent and also pointed out possibly my worst typo yet. Remaining typos are my own fault (especially because I fiddled with this after she read it). My thanks also to @knightedrogue, who isn’t going to de-friend me just because I refused her excellent title suggestion: ‘Snow and Mal’s Totally Bogus Journey,’ which she made BEFORE I told her who the characters were in this fic, thus proving she’s clairvoyant. 

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As always, I tag the Queen of Dragon Queen: @oparu

 
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I am sure it made sense, when someone decided to have Regina hug Emma after hearing about her engagement. I’m sure they looked at the scene and said, “Yes, this is something that would happen between two friends.” Makes sense! I, too, would hug a friend if she announced she was engaged.

But because it’s their only hug, the fact that it’s about Emma’s relationship with a man feels like the show is being deliberately mean to Swan Queen shippers. I know that it wasn’t intended that way. I know they don’t think that hard about this stuff. But I really wish they would think a little more–especially because they had plenty of moments where it would have made sense for the two of them to hug when it wasn’t about Hook or Robin and for whatever reason chose to skip those moments. And you know, if they’d hugged literally ONE other time, this would feel very different to me.

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 So Killian, the supposedly “fully reformed” villain of the show, is lying by omission to his fiancee. Yep. Good guy. Definitely marriage material. 

He was kinda drunk and having a hard time with this. He was going to tell Emma but then she pulls the ring on him. Sorry that he kinda went into shock had to go with the flow. Then didn’t want to ruin a moment that is now one of their biggest yet.

Yeah, narratively that’s on the writers.

But since they decided to have Emma find the ring, I get to critique Hook’s decision to not tell her right then and there. To tell her the truth. To take her aside and say, “I was going to ask you already, but I found out something big, something I needed to tell you,” and go from there. THAT would have been a big moment for CS. I WAS ROOTING FOR HOOK TO DO THE RIGHT THING. I WANTED to eat my words from last week, but Hook did what he has always done–he deferred revealing the truth. TO THE WOMAN HE WANTS AS HIS WIFE.

That undercuts their “big moment” for me.

Also, he didn’t have to be drunk. That was his choice. Just saying.

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 I’m not saying Emma shouldn’t be with Hook because he killed her grandfather. If I were, I would be a hypocrite because I ship her with Regina, who not only killed her other grandfather but mass murdered people, killed her OWN father, cast the dark curse, and generally made Emma’s life hell for a sustained period of time.

I’m not saying Hook hasn’t changed. The show has made it quite clear that he’s given up his murderous ways, that he feels remorse for killing people in the past, that he is trying to be a better man.

I’m not even saying she shouldn’t be with Hook.

I actually like(d) Hook and shipped Captain Swan before I re-watched the series and fell hard for Swan Queen (We do not choose our ships; they hit us over the head with the concussion of True Love.). I don’t mind that Hook isn’t perfect, that he doesn’t have this whole redemption thing figured out! I don’t mind that he falls into bad habits trying to defend himself from the consequences of his past (okay, I do mind, but I would understand it)! I don’t mind that he’s not immediately running to Emma to say “Hey, I killed your grandfather, just found out two seconds ago, forgive me?”

What I mind, more than anything, is that there’s a pattern of behavior when Hook does fall back into his old ways, Emma excuses him IMMEDIATELY, without reacting to or seeming to have her OWN FEELINGS about what he’s done.

That is what doesn’t feel like Emma to me, because Emma reacts to EVERYTHING. What does she do when Regina frames her for stealing confidential client files? She takes a chainsaw to Regina’s apple tree.

When she finds out that Neal is Rumple’s son, that he kept that from her and left her on Pinocchio’s say-so, she’s angry. She reacts to the revelation before she acknowledges that if he had told her, she would have thought he was nuts. She brings it up again when he asks her about her doing magic, saying that Rumplestiltskin’s son maybe doesn’t get to be judgy about her using magic.

Before Emma and Hook are together, when he comes to New York and kisses her, she shoves him away from her and slams the door on him. Then, when he again approaches her, she calls the cops on him and has him arrested (before she finds the photos in Neal’s apartment).

When Zelena curses Hook’s lips and he tells Emma about it, she doesn’t really want him tagging along to the farmhouse with her–and even though she does save him with mouth-to-mouth, she’s still not falling over herself to kiss him again. She’s still annoyed.

When Snow gets worried about Emma and pulls back on giving baby Neal to her because her magic is acting up, Emma reacts. She’s hurt. She’s afraid. She’s a little angry (and a lot angry later, when Ingrid riles her up).

When she finds out her parents, who held themselves up as heroes, as the good guys, stole Maleficent’s baby to remove Emma’s darkness, she’s pissed at them. She doesn’t immediately forgive them.

But with Hook after they’re together?

He colludes with Rumple to avoid Rumple telling Emma that he still has darkness in him–instead of owning up to hurting Will. Later, when Hook sucks the fairies into the Sorcerer’s Hat, Rumple had his heart, which you can’t blame him for. But when he threatens to tell Belle the truth about the dagger, when he punches Will, when he acts aggressively toward Emma, when he omits telling anyone the truth about all of those things, he was acting in his own best interest. But the only mention of it is when Emma says, “You didn’t have a choice.”

He kills Merlin; Emma covers it up. (I get why maybe she didn’t bring that up in the Underworld, considering she was at least partly to blame for the whole thing. I just wish the two of them had had a conversation that acknowledged that they both did horrible things as DOs and that they should try to do better from now on (like Snow and Charming after the baby-stealing episode).)

He keeps the shears against Emma’s express wishes and then lies to her about them. Emma’s like, “Oh, that’s fine. I would have done the same thing.” (This in particular made me SO MAD, because if anyone did that to me I’d be absolutely emotional about it and rage and talk to all my friends to see if I was blowing it out of proportion, and let’s just say that I consider myself slightly more emotionally stable than Emma ‘Chainsaw’ Swan.)

So yeah, IF Hook keeps this from her for a significant length of time (which he might not! I could be totally wrong!) and IF Emma just accepts it (which she might not! I could be totally wrong!) I’ll be ticked off. Because it’s a pattern. Because it doesn’t fit with how Emma reacts at other times or to other people or even to Hook prior to them being together. 

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 Look, I will eat my words if the first scene next week is Hook angsting about telling Emma and the next scene is him telling her. 

I will eat my words if Emma says “Oh my god, I need to think about this,” and forgives him in the second half of the episode.

But I am not putting money on either of those things happening. I do not think that this show is likely to show ANY consequences for Hook lying to Emma YET AGAIN, no matter how minimal. I do not think the current version of Emma–the woman who said, “Oh, no, that’s okay that you kept the shears that I asked you to drop into the deep sea that you explicitly told me you’d gotten rid of” or the woman who hasn’t even mentioned the fact that she covered up a murder Hook had done–will hold him at all accountable for his continued and repeated lies.

I fully expect this Emma to shrug it off yet again, because true love, etc etc. 

I hope I’m wrong.

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 Regina Mills is gay for Maleficent pass it on

From here

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I’m SUPER curious about Mal. How old is she? What’s her past like? The consensus appears to be that she doesn’t just turn into a dragon but IS a dragon, which is awesome, but how? Why live mostly as a human? WHAT HAPPENED WITH BRIAR ROSE? Does Mal like men in bed or does she prefer them roasted with ketchup? When did she decide that revenge was overrated? Did she ever feel guilty for cursing Aurora? Do she and Lily reconnect or does Lily bail?

What I’m saying is that there’s a lot a lot a lot of backstory to mine for her, which I LOVE.

It’s obvious that Regina and Mal were friends beyond just meeting that one time in Paris… but not really hanging out all the time, either. So… did they have lots of sex during that time or was that more an illicit weekend-away thing while Regina was still married?

I would be very happy if Regina and Mal started hanging out as friends on the show and then gradually realized they still had feelings for each other and kissed. That, to me, would be just a terribly beautiful love story.

@oparu wants to make sure I point out that they both have boobs. I also think this is important to note.
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@witchpieceoftoast prompted me to write Swan-Mills family snow day and @wig257 prompted “Regina gives Emma a hot chocolate with a surprising added kick” which seemed like they belonged together, honestly. Then I started to think about how I’m always writing first kisses and really I should mix that up a bit. The following is a bit light on the “family” part of the prompt, but Henry is in it!



Emma and Henry looked through the window with matching frowns, watching snow hurtle from the sky. It didn’t so much settle on the ground as obliterate it. A snow day had seemed so exciting when it was announced; Storybrooke had snow, of course, but it was usually not enough to close schools or keep people from work.

Today was an exception, a true blizzard with white-out conditions that had everyone huddled inside, including the sheriffs–although David was at home and Emma had gotten herself stuck over at Regina’s.

Henry sighed. “I can’t believe it. First snow of the year and we’re trapped inside.”

“Totally with you, kid,” Emma said. She’d already considered (and rejected) walking home, but there wasn’t really anything there, and it wasn’t like she had seriously considered it anyway–it looked really bad out there.

No, it looked like she was going to be here for at least a few hours if not all day. This meant spending time with Henry, which was always nice, but it also meant spending time with Regina. That would have been fine a week ago, but now things were a bit fraught between them. She’d come over today to check in with Henry but also to… test the waters a bit.

“Well, maybe it’ll get nicer later,” Henry said, turning in his seat and picking up a notebook and pen he carried with him everywhere these days.

Rolling her eyes at how easily Henry gave up moping–so not like her in that way–Emma got up from her perch and wandered over to the other window. She wasn’t sure why. It wasn’t like the weather would be different over here. She wondered where Regina was. She wasn’t going to go looking for her.

She wasn’t.

She wandered the other way, and then wandered right down the hall and into the kitchen.

Regina was pouring a pot of hot chocolate into three mugs. Emma waited until she was done before shuffling awkwardly into the kitchen.

“Hi,” she said.

Regina startled–just a little. Placing the pot into the sink, she turned around and indicated the mugs. “I thought…”

Regina looked almost as uncomfortable as Emma felt. She said, “I was going to take one to Henry.”

Two of the mugs, Emma saw, were in keeping with the kind of mugs Emma would expect Regina to have–perfectly pristine and white, a little boring but obviously quality. The third was black with beat-up yellow lettering that said STAR WARS.

Emma stuck her hands in her pockets and rocked back on her heels. “Oh, yeah, good idea. Thanks.”

Regina gave her a funny look but just took the Star Wars mug and left for the living room.

“Thanks?” Emma muttered to herself. Oh god. What was wrong with her?

The other two mugs were still on the counter. Emma would have thought Regina had taken the other with her to the living room. She could hear Regina and Henry talking in low voices. Should she take them both in? She thought that would probably be the nice thing to do. She picked on up and took a sip.

It burned. Emma choked, not expecting the strong taste of mint and booze that came with that first sip.

“That is definitely not cinnamon,” Emma said to the mug.

“I suppose I should have warned you,” Regina said from behind her.

Emma turned. “You think?” She took another sip. This time, she was able to appreciate the combination of flavors. She raised an eyebrow. “I wouldn’t have thought you were the spiked-chocolate-in-the-morning type.”

Regina shrugged and took the other mug from the counter. “Maybe I thought we’d both need it if we’re going to be spending the day together,” she said.

Emma’s pulse picked up. She turned the mug in her hands. “I guess things have been a bit…”

“Tense?” Regina finished. She took a sip of her own mug.

“… tense between us lately.”

“They don’t have to be,” Regina said.

“They don’t?” Emma said.

Regina stared down into her mug, Emma getting the distinct impression she was avoiding meeting her eyes. “Of course not. It’s not that big of a deal; we’ll just pretend it never happened.”

Emma blinked at her. “Not that big of a deal?” she said.

Regina huffed out a breath. “It doesn’t have to be–”

“Regina,” Emma protested. “That’s not–I don’t think I can just pretend it didn’t happen!”

Still not looking at her, Regina’s shoulders hunched. “Okay, fine,” she snapped. “I’m sorry, then. I apologize and it will never happen again. I just… made a mistake.”

“Wait, what?” Emma was more confused than ever. This conversation was quickly getting away from her. “You made a mistake?”

“Yes, okay–I thought–well, I clearly misread the situation, and–”

“You–whoa. Wait. I’m the one who freaked out, not you,” Emma said. “You didn’t do anything wrong. At all.”

Regina shook her head. “I shouldn’t have assumed.”

Emma saw a way out of the confusion. She said, “You didn’t assume anything that wasn’t true.”

“I did, I assumed–” Regina stopped as Emma’s words finally sank in, looking up at her for the first time. “What?”

Emma put down her mug and took Regina’s, setting it beside hers. “I said, you didn’t assume anything that wasn’t true.” She swallowed and took her hand.. “I just wasn’t expecting–which is not the same as saying I didn’t want–”

“But you–” Regina looked down at their hands, and then back up to Emma’s face. “You’ve been avoiding me.”

“Yeah, because I thought you were going to kill me,” Emma said. “Because I took off like a chicken shit and ran, not because you kissed me.”

“Not because I kissed you–” Regina repeated in a monotone. “Not because I–” her eyes narrowed, her expression hardening.

Emma braced for impact.

“You let me think–Emma, it’s been a week!”

“Hey–I thought you were already mad at me. I was giving you space!”

“Oh, no, you are not going to get off that easy–” Regina stopped suddenly, a horrified look on her face.

It took Emma a second or two to realize the double meaning. She snorted and said, “I would hate to presume,” and then Regina was laughing, too, little gasps that turned into full-throated laughter.

God, Emma loved Regina’s laugh.

She was still holding Regina’s hand, so she gave it a tug and then Regina was right there–not laughing any more, and then they were kissing. A proper kiss this time, because Emma was expecting this one and not standing there like an idiot. She was pretty sure Regina had already forgiven her, because she was wrapping her arms around Emma’s neck opening her mouth and this might be the best snow day ever.

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